Finally took a real shower. Like shaved, exfoliated, everything. I feel better but I’m also feeling very down on myself for the amount of weight I’ve gained in such a short period of time. I lost a lot over the summer and I’ve gained it all back and then some due to meds and depression. I might as well have stayed on invega and avoided all this heartache.

I’m also overwhelmed with my house. I haven’t cleaned properly in weeks and it shows. I don’t even know where to start.

I know recovery is a slow process so I need to cut myself some slack. I think today I’m going to try to just get one room cleaned up properly. I’ve also started to focus more on diet and slowly changing what I eat. I actually did much better this week in terms of WHAT I ate, but still terrible in how much I ate. But it will come in time I suppose.