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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight
And I definitely get what you mean about feeling like a traitor to your significant other. It's especially difficult when I'm sitting there in session, and MC just seems to *get it* and H doesn't. Or in the past, if I've been upset, and MC is trying to (verbally) comfort me, and H is just sitting there. Of course MC isn't like that all the time in real life, and he's talked about that. He said at one point that in real life, he's an a**hole, and I wouldn't want to hang around him. But still, I hear ways he's described taking care of his kids when they had anxiety, and...(Of course, he's also talked about yelling at them). It's just such a complicated mix of emotions.
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Thanks for understanding . This is so much where I am in my own way. I talk about secrets with my T I never told my ex husband or boyfriend or anyone at all. Inside the fifty minutes, he cares so much in the right way, his eyes fill up with tears or he "lends" me his anger he says. I'm fascinated by the intimacy of it all. But then he will admit he pushed too hard but time is up. I leave in tears( I rarely cry outside of this one space), and then it is like he forgets about me until next time. He has a wife and kids. I just get very confused if he does care, but it is like reading a chapter in a book and putting the book down when they client leaves. Meanwhile I go home and my boyfriend knows nothing of what I talked about with my T and I feel like I am living a double life, where I trust my T for than BF, whereas BF is probably the better man and is with me when T is no where to be found. I'm epically confused by the relationships.