I am sitting here reading my five page fax to T that I just had to send after last week's session.

I cannot believe I sent this darn thing. Ugh. Pouring my heart out on paper is fine, why couldn't I have just brought it with me this week?

Good lord his assistant reads the faxes how mortifying is this?

I don't know why I continue to do this sort of stuff. I rarely will call or fax but now that I have I just feel so much humiliation and guilt that I bothered T.

I feel so exposed and vulnerable when I do this which is what he wants from me but not over the darn fax!!!!!!!!!!!

How do I go there tomorrow and smile at Mr. Assistant?? I need to find a sandbox.