(((LT))) Early on in my work with this t, he gave me a coffee mug before he went on vacation one time. I was like, when do i have to give this back to you? I had no sense of it being mine to keep.

Its not conditional. The way you keep asking, "will you still see me, even if i get attached?" kinda shows me that you dont get it either, or didnt get it. Your mothers love and approval at the funeral was conditional on you not saying "the wrong thing". Or so she would like you to believe. I finally had to accept that i could NEVER say the right thing to my mother or the immediate family. If it were truly conditional, we would at least have a chance. But its like Las Vegas - the house always wins.

So heck, just accept that you have it. How would it change your life right now? How it changes MY life is - i have to get off my butt and exercise or clean house or at least drink some water! I have to do something positive for myself. I cant complain that "nobody loves me, everybody hates me, im gonna eat some worms"