Anytime I get hypomania I seem to act very quick and rude and other times I'm very giggly and I feel very good inside. It's like a bunch of
fireworks going off inside my head and I'm very happy and full of life. Sort of like the life of the party, but I don't party which I think is a good thing. Everything seems to work wonderful for me and sometimes I'll ramble on
about nonsense that makes no sense to me but other people have told me how smart and funny I am. However to me, I feel like I'm a wacko and try
to calm myself down when I'm having these episodes. When people are talking, I'll interrupt them and I notice when I do it and often times I'll
apologize if I take notice of it or I'll simply just ramble on until someone stops me. At night I have a hard time falling asleep and I'll do
so many different things all at once and my mind will be racing like crazy. I've had some cases where I'd be in mid sentence and completely
forgot what I was saying because my brain couldn't process everything that I wanted to say. Sometimes I'll ask the person, "What was I saying?"

This is all based on what I've noticed over the years and I continue to use my journal as an outlet so I can tell when I'm getting bad. If I feel
as if I might argue with people and I'm angry, I won't come around anyone because I always end up feeling guilty when I take my frustrations out
on somebody else. Just a week ago my mother just asked a simple question and I was sort of not feeling well. So I told her in a very nice way,
"Mom I'm not feeling so great right now. Can we talk about this later please?" And she understood finally that it wasn't a good time for me to
be talking because I could feel how frustrated I was inside at that moment. And when I'm mad, I have no idea what I'm even mad about. The same
goes for when I'm sad, I just feel sad, really really sad. It's horrible. When I'm deeply depressed, it's not the best feeling in the world.