Thanks you all. Sabby, it feels like I am burned out on life. The reality that I don't have power to stop bad things, bad people from happening to good people including myself, just hurts. Losing our foster daughter whom we love so much and hoped to adopt. My dealings with that agency which has been nasty, cruel, lying, sneaky etc. They have persecuted me and in part they have used my mental health diagnoses which they didn't even know about when they took the child. That one is hard.

I am sick of people being hurt and I want to have some power. And I need to protect myself some I guess.