Ok - let me give you a run down of a few things yesterday.

Get up - look on phone, find a text. Read the text n friend is bawling me out for "ignoring him" - when the truth is these past couple weeks I get 5 min at a time here and there and all the rest is spent doing things with my husband. Neither of us have our phones on during those times so we can simply enjoy being with each other. So I explain that n my friend gets upset bc I have someone to spend Christmas with n they don't. Finally get that situation settled - I go on FB, everytime I posted anything or responded to something someone took offense in some way ... I know ppl get offended easily on there but it isn't usually every little thing I say or post. So then, I am trying to cook supper - I usually keep extra ziplock bags (loose) in the cupboards so when I use a twinpack of something I can easily just put the other half of the twinpack in the zip lock n I reuse that zip lock over n over. Yesterday I got frustrated bc I could not find any of my ziplocks. I asked my husband if he had thrown them away he said he had not. So I said "I can't find any of the damn things. I keep them up here even after I empty them so..." and he interrupts me "I DONT KNOW WHERE THEY ARE!!!" I said "I didn't ask that and you could have waited til In was done talking to say that you are constantly interrupting me. I was venting. I am frustrated. If I interrupt you, you get mad. Why is it ok for you to consistently interrupt me?" To which he says "I wish I were dead". I said "Yep. That's your answer to everything. Everytime I get upset or frustrated or say something bothers me you wish yourself dead or we need to break up - yet you were the one who asked me to marry you, I did not tell you to do that." He said "no, God forced me to do that" I said "God didn't force you to do anything - did He hold a gun to your head?" He said "nope - guess I shouldn't have asked you." I said "you're right, if you don't love me, you should not have" and sat down to wait on food to cook. I happened to exhale loudly as I do when trying to release frustration - get a nasty look for doing that. Then after we were done eating, I went back on FB for a time - same deal. Came here .. cannot talk about that per rules. So yea it isn't about how I am perceiving ppl it is simply how they are reacting to me. It would be a lot nicer to believe it was just my perception. I thought of that n analyzed it as a possibility before posting this thread - I just ruled it out.

Thanks though. ❤