I'm so nervous I don't know what to do. I've had stomach problems for many years, like IBS and GERD sort of issues. So I eat really healthy and have tried different approaches to eating including experimenting with avoiding certain foods like wheat/grain products, or dairy, etc. All to help with my symptoms. But I'm very health conscious so I know what I'm doing and I eat enough and get all my nutrients from a variety of foods.
However my parent doesn't get what I'm doing sometimes or why I eat certain way. My BMI is normal but probably right on the edge of the low side. I have a fast metabolism and have a hard time gaining weight too. But really I just eat super healthy - no processed or junk foods period. But this is all my parent is preoccupied with ...all the time.
Sometimes they ask me what I ate like checking up on me, and maybe suggest 'oh why don't you have something else like ...this or that" like indirectly implying that they think I didn't eat enough and I should have something extra to supplement. Sometimes I skip a meal or eat something plain and light because my stomach is not feeling good, not often anymore, but when I do I can tell they start with the suggesting I eat something else or another thing.
Than there's the whole issue of when we argue about it they start with the '"i'm too skinny" ordeal and how I need to eat more. Then this just makes me feel like crap because there's nothing I can do about it.
It's like telling someone constantly they need to change their diet because they are fat. And then actually telling them to their face that they are fat.
Part of me agrees with them and wish I could be more full body and I go to the gym to put on muscle, but its so hard for me because of my fast metabolism and healthy diet. I don't care about being bigger, I just want to be healthy. They don't get it.
I get so frustrated and depressed during these encounters with them and I get thinking of leaving forever or harming myself. (but I would never do the last thing) but I feel that way inside. Like a self hate....from this pressure to be something I can't be. Or change something I can't change.
I don't know what to do, I'm so sick of this and the worst part is I live with them which contributes to my stress and stomach issues in itself.
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