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Old Dec 10, 2017, 03:36 AM
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Originally Posted by sugahorse1 View Post
Hi Cider - thanks for an interesting and insightful post yet again.
I did ride yesterday. Even if only for 20min. And my horse went very well, so I at least felt good and like I had accomplished something.

My pdoc writes my script. I don't actually have a GP at the moment, because I never go to the doctor.

I think I also have an above average IQ and that kind of mind that always wants to push the envelope. It means that with my pdoc I can be very much a part of the treatment process, and even suggest possible med combo's. My t used to find me a bit of a challenge due to the nature of my questions and thinking.
You are lucky to have an amiable psychiatrist. My therapist and psychiatrist are both suspicious of my suggestions: anything that I suggest is shot down with an “oh, I suppose you learned that from the internet?” And, yes, that is usually true. So I have to engage them in a dance, I have to dance and repeat symptoms (very real symptoms!) to expect a change.

In short, my psych-care combo do not want me to participate in my therapy. That is true of all of my physical-care docs, as well. When I call and say. “I believe that I have pneumonia,” they say no, no, call 911 and so I do and when I get to the hospital, I’m told that I have pneumonia.

I once had psychs that allowed me to participate in my own care... before the internet connected, well, everything.

I used to ride along the giant electrical lines for hours. I remember the smells. Freshly mown grass, leather, my horse’s scent. I envy you your rides. I’ve not ridden since 1998.

Yes, but numbness. Is there something that you fear?