Hi guys. So brief intro. I have recurrent depressive disorder, social anxiety disorder, autism spectrum disorder, trichotillomania and agoraphobia.
All my life, I have always thought my house was haunted, seeing things hearing things etc when nobody else would. Fast forwarding to today, I have been clinically depressed for 5 months now with 8 hospitalisations. I used to think people were calling my name and I used to get upset. I get times where I feel disconnected from reality and times with that I had gone to a train station or main road because I have an inner voice telling me to do so. The voice in my head is sometimes male sometimes female. It's called Tony. It morphs to confuse me. It's a demon. I've seen him in my dreams. He shows me scenarios where I msut cut myself in half, shoot myself in the heart. Last night he showed me and told me self injurious behaviour is and feels good. He tells me promises like afterlife is better etc. I often feel possessed and know that its in me. Ive taken pics when this has happened and it doesnt look like me. I have often followed the instructions. It becomes nice when I do as it says.