I sometimes visualize how I want a session to be, and in my mind I'm very animated in expressing my feelings. I just did this yesterday. I enacted an entire scene with me saying emphatically to T "I don't love YOU! You're nothing to me. It's my mother I love! I miss her! "She's the only one who really loved me!" I'm in a rage, crying in emotional and physical pain ( I was in physical pain when I was visualizing this scenario) and T had tears in her eyes, saying "let it out". I've never cried in therapy.

Suffice it to say, when I see T that scene will never occur. The most that will happen is that I TELL her about it with no emotion and no tears. Kind of matter of factly. I can see the dramatic scene in my mind right now, but when I get to the office it disappears.