I’ve always had a plan of just taking off somewhere in the mountainous wilds in the motherland — as preparation, I’ve picked out a couple of places (monasteries) I could move to and live in a few years earlier, when I’m still in a somewhat stable condition (physically and mentally).

But, recently, I’ve been considering making more concrete plans — actually moving there earlier and living on my own etc.

I have zero intentions of discussing any of this with current T — she remotely wouldn’t get it, although, to be fair, I know she’ll try her damnedest best to understand.