I have been diagnosed with OCD in the past, I thought I got over it, or was able to deal with it, but now I think that either its coming back, or I am just in a bad relationship again.

I broke up with a sociopath 4 years ago and he has left some scars. I went completely paranoid during our time together. I thought he was cheating and my mind went to all kinds of crazy places. The thing is, he was. Now I couldn't be always right as to all the details, but just being right confirmed my paranoia as logic. Now with my current "relationship" I feel the exact same way, but I don't know if it is because he is lying to me like my ex was or because I was too careful to get attached and saw him suspiciously since the get go. I have had smaller, yet similar incidents with my two relationships before the sociopath. The one right after the sociopath cheated on me too, I forgave him, yet for some odd reason I never had any incident like it. Of course he cheated on me again but never told me. Still no incident. I was in a good place at the time if that counts.

Of course, my one rule after the sociopath was never ask a liar for the truth. So I can't ask him. But I think I should? I'm confused.

I just want to know how he really feels about me but I have already asked him a couple of times so asking him again feels too much. It's also complicating as this relationship is poly, which is new to me.