(((((((( Kaye ))))))))
You are not alone dear one. I'm so sorry for what you are going through.
It takes strength to reach out and post here for the first time and you did a wonderful job of it. There are many wonderful folks here who can relate to what you have been through. I myself am one of them.
Your life is not over....it may be changed, but not over by a long shot. I know it feels that way now....but it won't always feel that way.
Please take good care of yourself ok? You are very important and deserve all the care you can get.

sabby