Hello Linoahs: I'm sorry I can't really comment on this directly. The one observation I can offer, I guess, is that I myself have had a life-long struggle with gender identity issues. (I'm an older person now.) And the one conclusion I've come to, based on that life-long struggle, is that things relating to gender identity & sexual orientation are extremely confusing. And trying to sort it all out can be like going down the rabbit hole, so to speak. (At least it has been for me. I know it's not necessarily like that for everyone.) I would guess that having a good therapist who has experience working with these kinds of issues may help. This was something that was not available to me way back when it would have made any difference. But perhaps it might be of some value to you, if you're not yet seeing someone.

Anyway... I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!

P.S. Over the time I've been here on PC (& this is my second time around) I've read quite a few posts written by members who had become hooked on porn. And I have to say that my personal impression is it is really bad stuff. It's like throwing gasoline on the proverbial fire, as the saying goes. I suppose part of my reaction is simply related to the fact that I'm gettin' old. But my recommendation would be, since you're already struggling with these sexual orientation issues, try to steer clear of the porn.