About three years ago I was smoking every single day, almost all day. I didn't want to do anything unless I did it high. Why eat food when it tastes better high? Why listen to music when it sounds better high? Why be nervous or stressed when you can get high?

I smoked every day for probably 2 years, until eventually one night I ate too many edibles and had a case of the "mean greens" (aka I got too high). I had my first panic attack and began vomiting and had to be taken to the hospital. I had noticed beforehand that weed was making my paranoia worse but I just didn't worry about it.

From my personal research I have found that weed can accelerate the onset of mental illnesses and make them worse. Before I began smoking I was mentally healthy with maybe just a sprinkle of depression. I don't think that weed caused me to become mentally ill but I believe it may have sped up the process and clouded my thoughts enough to where I didn't realize I needed help early.

I haven't smoked in three years. The first year was tough, I kept thinking about it but after a while you kind of just forget about it. I'll think of it now and then and even look back on some memories where I was high fondly, but I have now realized how awful it is for someone who has mental health issues.

You will stop craving it soon, and you have made the right choice stopping. I noticed after a few months that my memory was better, I had more energy, and was more productive.

This is just my point of view, I hope it helps and I hope you feel better