I've experienced some of what you are dealing with, Amyjay. I to did not believe for a very long time that I had ever been abused. I knew that I had had really bad experiences but, didn't know for a long time what was really going on. In fact I am still finding things out and discovering stuff about myself/selves that I'd never really thought of before but, sometimes it's like that for me because I have a racing mind which sometimes distracts me from the obvious. Saying