Thank you everyone for all of the replies. I think my problem is that I hate asking anyone for anything because I can't bear to ask and be denied. Plus, I worry that expressing any sort of need will lead to a loss of control and my black hole of neediness will swallow everything up.

As for the silence, I think T is waiting for me to say more, as I'm rather sparing with my words. However, I refuse to talk just to fill the silence. Sometimes she asks what I'm thinking. I'm usually wondering what she's thinking, but I don't say that.