When I'm alone like this, I feel everything so much more.

I don't want to feel this anymore.



I can't hold everyone up anymore, but the chains won't loosen. They're around my neck and tighten every time I try to breathe. I'm holding onto people who've given up and I keep pulling them off the ledge, the most recent one being my little sister. I don't even know if what I'm doing is right, if it's humane. I know it sure as hell doesn't feel that way for me.

I want to break, completely. No one will be there when I crumble. I know they won't because I won't let them. These are my demons, not theirs. They have enough to deal with.

I just hope everyone knows how sorry I am that I can't keep this up.