every sunday and tuesday night i start getting anxious and worried and stressed about work the next day. i worked so so hard to get back to be able to work part time. but now anxiety eats away at me and i doubt myself so much. i just sit nd cry and worry. none of my coping skills make it much easier. theres so much worse things things in the world and i feel bad for feeling this way. i cant go back to not working because i really need the money and everyone would be so disappointed in me. i just really wanna succeed. i havent had much in the way of success in my adult life.

why does this always happen? i always let stress get me. so i just sit here and cry and think of all the things i have to do for work but dont know how to do and no one to help me. then i hide it from everyone.