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Dec 10, 2017, 09:59 PM
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Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: The Depths of Sadness
Posts: 800
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Originally Posted by Michael W. Harris
I know many people believe that DID was a coping mechanism developed so the child could survive like you suggest. I do not. I believe that the toddler's mind gets broken before it has a chance to develop normally. I believe that the alters develop over a period of years just like a normal child's personality would develop over a period of years. Each alter develops over time growing up in the abusive or dysfunctional family. How they develop is a function of their individual interaction with the sick family members who are traumatizing them. I do not believe that there is any sanity or logic in why the alters exist. Maybe if one could actually witness the interaction of each personality with the different members of the sick family, you might could find some logic in how they developed.
I believe a toddler gets traumatized so badly that the toddler goes into shock. A new born has no conscious personality. It has the innate brainstem portion of the brain but the conscious brain, the logical brain, has to develop over time. The memory, also, has to develop over a period of time but all of it starts developing at birth.) So if the toddler gets traumatized before the logical brain has developed appropriately it is the subconscious mind, the brainstem mind, that is affected because the logical brain has not developed yet. Any way we know that the toddler's brain development gets screwed up.
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I beg to differ, Michael. I'll tell you why...
Possible trigger:
When I was four to five years old my father left for a time, came back and then left again. That was my earliest memory of trauma and it was pretty intense. Soon after, I started having intense mood changes and when I was like this I was very mean, very vengeful, sometimes violent and full of hate. It wasn't until I was a teenager that this evil alter named himself. While doing a lot of thinking some years back I finally realized that that is where he came from. The dread that my father would leave a second time and the fact that this fear was realized when he did was too much for my fragile child's mind and I cracked. I believed for a long time once I discovered that it was a part of DID that what had actually happened was that I had suddenly found that my perception of the world was incorrect, that the world or life itself was actually a very unpleasant and ugly thing and if I were to survive I would have to recreate or redesign myself to become a more durable self that could handle all of this. But, psychology doesn't describe it that way so, I have abandoned that idea but, it's still an interesting way to look at it. Anyway, I was already self aware by that point and already had OCD as early as three and possibly other problems that I'd inherited on my mother's side as she too had a lot of obvious mental problems. As far as having personalities that are abusive toward you, my first alternate or what I call my dark alternate hates my guts and he doesn't mind letting me know that either. He calls me "a weakling" as well as other unkind things.
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