I've been thinking about this today.

If I could go back to the beginning point of when all of this (I don't have words for) happened, could I walk that little one out and it be different?

Could it be like a domino effect?

If I could go back and find the beginning root of where I was altered and had to be someone else, because I couldn't be me, would it make a difference?

Would it change who I am now in a better way?

Would it change my life path and who I am now, in a good aspect?

There are good aspects. It just feels like the bad is so loud right now.

Have you ever wondered that?

If you could go back to the base root of where the ? (what do you call it?) happened, and have the ability to heal it, would it ripple down and heal the other things that have been so hard?

There had to be a place of origin that started this all.

I have hope to find it and find healing for it. I hope the domino effect happens.

That may sound stupid.

I'm just rambling and wishing.