LT, I am so sorry you are hurting so much! Please take care of yourself, he is not worth that much. I am glad you have the new T with clear boundaries and lots of insight. Why don't you try to lean on him more and really try to cut MC out of your head. How about trying another MC the same way you tried another T and found it a good change. I am in no way taking MC's side on this at all, I think he f'd it up. It is very confusing telling everything is ok and then suddenly it is not. I understand your hurt. But also maybe he realized what he was doing was not helping you. Your feelings for him seemed to only intensify. And he is your MC, not your T. I suggest you talk with your wise T about all this and let him be there for you and maybe try another MC. I don't really believe in working through all these feelings with him.