I am doing well. One of my students increased her TOEIC score by 200 points and was elated. She thanked me for helping her. I don't know if I helped any but am happy to be teaching her. I also asked one of the companies I am working for to increase my workload. We shall see how that goes. I also asked one of my former students if she still needs a teacher. I am feeling fine. Life is pretty good. Of course, it would be nice to have a full-time job but I know that I can't do it as a teacher due to the competition and my age. It is not that I am not good at teaching but the other factors play a role as well. I think the schools want young teachers understandably. I will try to do my best to do with what I have already. I am surviving. I am doing ok. I will try another path of trying to be a bilingual worker and see how that goes. I figure it is less competition and language skills are very important in this case. I am not too anxious and will work at becoming bilingual. I have to study a lot though. This is ok because I have time now. I am hoping that my request to increase my workload is accepted though. I do like working. It gives me a sense of being productive. In the meantime, I will be happy with what I have. Life is good for now. I don't spend much. I just eat out occasionally. I don't have a spending habit so am doing ok.

My online man is doing well too and is working hard. He is doing well at his job so I am happy for him. He is not mentally ill though. He accepts my illness though. He is quite a man. He was concerned but now accepts me as a person. He trusts me. He is so nice to me. I sometimes wonder why some men are just users then some men are not. I guess I'm lucky this time. I am happy about him. I look forward to meeting him. Since I talk to him daily, I feel I know him well already. But, chemistry between people is important too. Thus, I am hoping for the best when we meet in two weeks.

I can't believe Christmas is almost here. Wow!! time flies. Last year, I was depressed and sad but this year I have hope. I am happy and feeling good. I think living in a city with comfortable surroundings helps a lot. I am excited about next year!

To those you are suffering, please be patient because no situation lasts forever. Situations change all of the time. I was homeless about five years ago and thought life would not get any better. But, now I am doing ok and have jobs and am surviving on my own. If I thought I would be homeless forever, I would have given up. However, I hoped that my situation would improve and it has. I had no friends and now am making contacts with others. Life is a roller coaster. I believe that life is not a destination but a journey. This journey has been tough for me but I feel blessed for having taken it and am a better person for having endured it. I hope that this Christmas we all have something to be thankful for and are looking at the light at the end of a dark tunnel. I feel your pain because I have been there and can tell you that life is full of suffering as well as joy. May we cherish and hold onto the joys in our lives while remembering we have suffered in spite of it. I wish you all a Happy Holiday Season!!