Thank you Minnow,

Good news that you are 3 months clean. Congrats. I am just over a month behind you.

and I agree about numbing and indifference, well when your life feels like crap then this can be the most one can hope for but that is a false idol. Totally false. That is a lie of the addiction. Combining with alcohol would be a very bad combination for me as I'm sure I would have become an alcoholic too; good you are free of that combination.

I will have to be vigilant for the rest of my days. The thing I . miss the most is the initial 'awakeness' I get with the first buzz in the morning. I felt like a light turned on in my head that is otherwise absent.

But there are other ways to wake up. I'm still struggling with feeling like crap until the afternoon each day and now that I think about it that might just be part of the cannabis withdrawal.