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Loose Screw x 2 · Dec 11, 2017, 07:29 PM

My bad alternate uses caffeine for this or if we are already loaded up with it, it sustains him. It's his energy. Too much of it will bring him out in a bad way so, we have to be careful with the intake. However, I do need coffee in the mornings to help me stay awake because of sleep apnea.

Possible trigger:

About two months ago, I just about got into a physical fight with my ignorant brother who doesn't understand and is abusive in some ways. I was upset and decided to try to guzzle a two liter drink to deliberately bring out the evil one. He knocked the bottle out of our hands and smacked us hard and tried to justify it with talk of "tough love" then, tried to hug me and I/it was still and didn't hug back because it was pissed off. It threatened him with a "You'll pay for that." which he foolishy didn't take seriously and just blew him off like what he/it had said didn't matter. We chose not to do anything to him because he is family but, he's still a fool in our eyes. Sorry. It's an unpleasant memory.

Sorry for letting go of some of the information that I have in me but, this has been happening a lot lately as part of my stress. Sorry for coming in to yet another thread and making it about me. I know that that is very rude. I just have an intense need to express this stuff. And for once I feel that I have found an online community that understands. But, back to what AlwaysChanging2 said about staying pissed off. That is my dark alternate when he isn't high on one of his delusions and going on about his 'perceived' powers.

Possible trigger:

The only other thing that helps him maintain his presence is when the original (Me) is afraid because of the stuff that he does and threats that he makes. My fear is his new or secondary energy source.