I had a therapist do the hand tapping on the legs thing years ago to calm me down. She saw even then, but, didn't tell me what it was. Still she was very understanding and compassionate. I wish she could be my therapist again.

About flashbacks, an image has been trying to come into my mind a lot lately that interferes with part of my recent sexual fantasies. I don't know if this is the unwanted OCD thoughts trying to torment me or if it's a past memory trying to break through but, I hate it and keep trying to push it away.

What AlwaysChanging2 said even deep sleep not being safe. "Aint it the truth!" Sometimes it seems like "out of the frying pan and into the fire".