My fiance is away at Police Academy. It's been a week now since he's been away. 3 days in he called me an said that he was thinking of dropping out. The reason he gave me was that he was concerned about the tough family life that we would have. I was very touched, but told him no way would I let him drop out for "me". I realize that our family life won't be easy, but really what is a normal family life these days anyway. We live in a smaller town in north eastern AZ, so it's not like he's going to be a working for a larger city like Phoenix.

I saw him this weekend and he looked like crap, and seemed pretty down. Apparently he's rethinking if he really wants to be a cop anymore. This makes me sad, because we can't afford for him not to do this. We just signed the lease on a nicer, but more expensive apartment because he got this job. I want to be supportive, and I don't know if I'm being supportive in the right way.

This has been really hard on me and made me quite emotional, I've been crying everyday. Only four more months I guess.