Hey. Not sure how I am. Have been feeling physically like crap, and exhausted when I get home from work. I had planned to go shopping after work and couldn't get myself to get out of the car. I sat in the parking lot on my phone looking stuff up online for over 35 minutes and then finally aborted mission and went home. I have no food in the house and stopped at a fast food place so I could go tbru the drive thru bc I didn't want to get out of the car. I know that is not normal behavior.

I did put up outside lights and put up and decorated a Xmas tree this weekend so at least it feels festive here. Still have to clean and vacuum and do laundry but at least the living room is Christmasy. I even wrapped gifts and put them under the tree. So maybe I'm not as far gone as I fear? Idk. The idea of making tbru the next 2 weeks w/o calling in sick sounds awful. I'm trying to hold on for that holiday break. If I can pick up all the crap around the house I might gift myself a present of a maid service. My family is coming to stay next week and the prospect of getting the place clean is overwhelming me. I don't know if it would be too weird tho bc i would only do it while I was home- I'm nervous my cats would get out. I suppose I can do paperwork in the office while they r there? Seems like a waste of $ but Idk if I have it in me to clean.

Anyway hugs to all. May tomorrow be a kick asss day for us all...