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Originally Posted by emgreen
Hey! I quit cigs in 2015, too...after smoking for 30 years! I've been clean & sober for a while now because my substance abuse kicked my arse around the block more than a time or two - but quitting cigs was pretty painful for me, too!
Congrats on the 90+ days, minnow! Keep on!
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Thank you for sharing emgreen. It means a lot to me as I feel so alone now with all my problems. At least I got the nicotine monkey off my back but it took more than a year.
Cannabis is definitely easier but also it is a slippery slope in the thought process that could lead me to light up again. I've had huge consequences recently for my 'sins'.
After I quit smoking cigarettes I went through some health checks (I had no symptoms...) one of which was a chest xray, and found out I had lung cancer which led to surgery and chemo and lifelong monitoring.
My last psychotic episode led to criminal charges for the first time in my life. I wasn't any more crazy than some previous episodes but I acted out in different ways. So there are some tough lessons to learn. This place and my psychiatrist's office (I have 45 minute talk-therapy sessions with him) is my refuge.
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Originally Posted by Minnow
Thanks for the Congrats.
emgreen, Congrats on quitting smoking cigs!
ticomsin, I totally understand what you mean by "Awakeness" weed gave you. I told myself that it was an "Activator" for me to get going and it was in a way. That morning hit made me very active and alert. Like you mentioned, all my senses were heightened. Second hit at noon was needed and one at 4 too. This was my typical work day. Weekends were more frequent. I did this while hiding it from everyone. Even my wife. I knew I had to stop and find a better way.
Now I'm very slow in the morning and have to push myself. I will say that my mood has stabilized and I'm not having deep dark lows with panic and anxiety. So that is very nice.
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Yes Minnow that is exactly how weed worked for me. I am trying rexulti now in the morning at a low dose to start and hoping it will snap my brain out of the funk. I am also hoping that the passage of time will help to relieve the heaviness. My brain literally felt lighter when I got a buzz on cannabis. Like there were little sparks then went off. I am seeing a slow improvement in the morning. for instance it is morning now and my brain is working well enough to read your messages and type a response. A month ago I would not have been able to do that.