Dear MC,
You know what this feels like? Like I was a kid who was bad, and now "Daddy" is punishing me. And not in the sense of, you're punishing me for my own good. But more that you're exerting your power over me. You KNOW how much power you have over me, so when you actually use it...it hurts that much more.

You could have done this so much differently. First of all, you could have brought it up in session, not on the phone, at the end of a very painful phone call. You could have phrased it as, you haven't had as much time to respond to e-mails lately. And that I seem to get anxious when I don't hear back and will write again. So maybe we could figure out a solution to that together. Or that you're wondering if outside contact is doing me more harm than good--how do I feel about that. You know, a dialogue, rather than a decree from up on high. Because this feels like it's what's best for you, not for me--since you said you were "bothered" by it...like you're just sick of dealing with it. But, oh, you're not taking it away entirely, so you can still think of yourself as the good guy. Yet you won't give me any sort of parameters, so that I'll have to worry all the time--is this too much? Because you won't tell me in advance--not until I've already crossed that line. Just like with ex-T except with her, I had to ask. And I've asked you numerous times, too, checking in, and you always said it was fine. Until it wasn't... And you know that's one of my triggers.

LT