Sorry, I just have this compulsion to type and type right now. I'll try to keep this as brief as I can.

I may be hypomanic right now, possibly escalating into actual mania at some point. It shows no signs of stopping. It's getting more intense almost every day. I'm sleeping about 5-6 hours a night and having rather vivid dreams, I have a bad case of the motor mouth, I'm restless, and I've already done things I regret.

But the thing is, I don't know if this is intense enough to really warrant concern. I mean, I'm still 100% functional right now. This might not even be hypomania and I could just be excited about something. I don't know.

I've been taking my meds, though I ran out of my antipsychotic today. I don't want to call my pdoc because I think he's been prescribing some of these meds to mess with me and I'm rather distrustful as a result. I see my therapist tomorrow though but I already know what she's going to say.

I really don't know who to go to or when I should get help. I'm so freaking medicated there's no way I could be going hypomanic right now.