Hi LL,
Just want to say that I think you are absolutely more than entitled to think this way and to define for yourself what you desire *and* change that however and whenever you want. Might it be difficult to find someone who's compatible with how you like things? Yes, perhaps. You're in a minority, I think it's pretty safe to say, and perhaps a small minority. And not to minimize it--this is definitely an issue that would be make-or-break for many. But for example I'm a hetero guy and my preferences very closely match yours. Men are far more varied than either women or men are led to believe. And hey, the internet makes it easier to find others with one's particular preferences than has ever been the case in human history (case in point, this website) Anyway, just want to encourage you to "Do You"--and I guess I mean for you to take that in any senses you care to -cs