The only reason why I'm considering it is that while these people have been phony before...... It's always very easy to tell. Because once you start have a conversation with them about anything of substance, they revert back to the verbal abuse within a couple conversations. And assuming they turn again, I'd be able to move on and put the idea of any sort of possibility that they processed things and changed aside. But the day that they start judging me again, (assuming that they do), I will remove myself so there will be no possibility of further cycles happening. The only reason I've given any "chance" at all now is that the really atrocious behavior really only began after my coming out and the incidents certainly centered around this issue..... and it's not unheard of for a family that reacted badly initially to something like this to "come around" over the course of time.
Though, that would require a significant amount of empathy, which has certainly seemed to be lacking here. But I feel like if I just walk away without really knowing I would always wonder if they were beginning to come around and I walked away before I could really seems it. But I'm certainly not going to be surprised if it just goes back to more of the same again. It would be the less likely possibility that it won't. I also would need to feel like there was some sort of recognition of their behavior, which honestly seems like it's not impossible but also somewhat unlikely.
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