I feel too dependent now. I am starting to feel my dependent part more and I don't want to go back to that desperate place. I want to be the strong me who is respectable. I feel like I am being pulled apart inside. I feel like I will never find peace. I feel like I must not be okay being who I am now. I feel like I am of no consequence. I feel like I am not even allowed to have an opinion, but if I do, it is chalked up to me being a negative energy vampire or it is chalked up to the fact that I am neurotic. I wish I could not care about what any other one else's opinions are. I want to just be me. I am desperately trying to be me. I am trying to find my voice but feel like I am meeting resistance everywhere. I wish I was a better patient and didn't complain so much. I know you are trying to help me
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