I am newish here too and sometimes I just don't have it in me to post or respond. I feel as id I complain too much adn everytime I start to say something meaningful I sound petty and it mocks me...well, internal dialogue that I learned in previous marriage of being only 1/2 a woman and bad and no good and every curse word in the book in several languages and my reasoning is if i call myself that then when someone else does it can't hurt cause thats what I am right?? I am screwed up, lol and coming here even if I don't write, I get something from reading the posts...I get something when I am able to reply to a post, even if it is prayer and and ...well reaching out. I am living through my computer...I don't go out much except to doctors appt and some chores, but more n more often than not I wait for moggles or my mom to go with me.

So, please stay. I would like to read more and respond more to you. You do speak well and your thoughts behind your words are real to me.

melanie