i know im not a screw up. ive just made some really screwed up choices. crack alcohol pills cocaine its all so inticing but theres always the last hit the last drink and so on and then...mental & physical hell. my addict mind forgets this so easy its scary. need lots of support and encouragement & also i have to have the desire to be free of these more than the desire to be in bondage to them and stay honest with myself. it feels sooo much better to have a clear mind not have the shakes & a constant monkey on my back. i know its scary to ask for help the first time but then its relieving. the Lord knows how many times ive messed up after getting help the first time but its a learning from the mistakes each time & finally having the main picture. ill pray for u.