Idk I told my T about something like this because I was really worried I might hurt someone....she was like no I’ve dealt with people who are actually homicidal and it’s not at all the same. The way I deal with this for myself is to not ever have access to obvious weapons. No guns no knives outside of cooking. I also tell myrslef that while personal alarms and pepper spray are ok I’ll let the police handle everything else or the military. That way I never feel like I need to save the world by killing one person or anything like that (which is what was happening)