Thank you for the advice and comforting words. I came here this morning ready to clean up Dan's mess. He is very ashamed of his previous posts and last night told DH (Our dark part) that he was ready to do whatever he said and wouldn't fight him any more. The two introjects/protectors didn't like it but, he just wouldn't listen any more. I believe that he has -no. I *know* that he has given up hope. He's put up with a lot of garbage, not just in childhood abuse but, as a youth as well when he was severely bullied and didn't fight back. There is a lot of shame over that and very hard feelings toward the bullies and those who refused to help. He also had some abusive school teachers. The kind of people who were themselves disturbed or just plain cruel. Dan hasn't named me but, my function is mainly damage control. I fix things, calm him down, clean up messes when too much information has been released, stuff like that.
I can feel his anxiety right now. I may just have to stick around for a while or today at least. He's frightened and I can't really blame him. He's particularly upset about the posts of his perceived mate or inner mate as he refers to her. He wants me to fix that but, we have the code about honesty, mainly put in place by Dan himself. Honesty is very important to him and he'll use it even when he knows it could end up working against him. I think that deep down it's about honor, respect. Things like that.

To answer your questions. fille folle, we are on dissability and have been for a while. Our OCD, nerves and other problems make us unable to work.
You'd never notice if you met us in person/s. We've learned how to hide our various problems and to read emotions in others. It's very important to us that our readings are accurate and not simply perceived as accurate. This skill has helped out in more ways than one and even helped us to comfort others when we see pain in their eyes or hear it in their tone. Dan struggles to be good because he hates wickedness. In his mind or way of thinking evil must be destroyed. Not evil people but evil itself. In his moments of despair last night he believed himself -he doesn't want me to say it. Well, maybe he'll let it out later when he feels comfortable to do so.

To Amyjay, what do I want to do? Well, since it was Dan's post. I tyhink that he wants to hang back today and let me or G or someone else sale the ship. I think he just wants some therapy and the sooner the better.
He really is at the end of his rope. We are scheduled to see our doctor near the end of the month but, it's getting out of hand in here and we don't feel like we can hold out until then. We think that we are on the verge of a nervous breakdown.

L.P., Thank you for the words of comfort. It has helped. Dan is starting to calm down now.

We thank you all again for your responses. You have helped us today. Thanks again.