Christmas is always hard for me I lost my dad 20 years ago on the 10th.. I have a love hate relationship with Xmas .

What do I do ? mostly just suck it up , Try to play along and if it doesnt fool everyone them so be it.

My anxiety goes sky high and thats I think the toughest thing, I dunno ..

My advice? Do what you can and muddle through .. Not much of a other choice I guess.

Holidays can suck big time for almost every Bipolar I know, Im sorry