I'm waiting for the hospital to call back so I can be admitted as I am currently in the throes of the worst mixed episode of my life. It's beautifully terrifying, and I do not say that in a glorifying way but more in an observational capacity. It's fascinating. I just wish I wasn't the subject.

I'm scared.

EDIT: They just called back. I'm going in. Dunno when I'll be back.