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I personally rarely dream or I guess I should say I don't remember my dreams. So I'll preface my comments by saying I'm not experienced in interpreting dreams and my comments are likely just pure BS. If this response is way off base, feel free to tell me not to quit my real job. :-)

Although I don't remember my dreams, I do day dream from time to time. Often they are about good and bad times related to the past or about current situations. Recently I've been day dreaming a lot about getting totally blitzed out of my mind. Its been freaking me out a bit because I'm not sure how healthy it is to be day dreaming about drug induced insanity. I'm not sure what is behind these day dreams, because I have not used drugs since graduate school.. 20 yrs ago.. (Ouch! that reality hurt )

Anyway, I think our underlying issues are a bit different. Your dream seems to be related to unconditional love and mine... maybe be about self control. However the method of achieving what we want/need are similar- drugs. I have been asking myself this week.. why am I wishing for something I've lived without for so many years? Then I read your post this morning.

For me it may be that I am looking for a way to remove or diminish the affect of my conscious brain and allow my subconscious to run wild for a while. Maybe the fact that drugs are involved gives me an excuse or a way not to have to accept responsibility for the outcome. Getting blitzed would allow me to act like.. i don't know..a needy freak, I could let go of my inhibitions, open and directly ask for love; cradling; for someone to take care of me for a change; allow someone to be in control for a while, whatever it is that my subconscious might want. Afterwards people would simply dismiss my actions by saying, "That wasn't really her, she was just wasted and temporarily insane, hallucinating. " Sometimes in my day dreams I even go as far as having someone slip me the drug. This way I'm not even responsible for deliberately inducing the temporary insanity.

I don't know..for me I've concluded that my day dreams are about my subconscious wishing for or exploring something that my rational mind will never allow me to ask for or even consider exploring.

Maybe your turning your T into stone in your dream suggest that her dream character is not buying into the "that wasn't really her, she was just wasted" assumption. When the drug induced insanity is all said and done, she is going to see right through the exterior persona to the inner person (persona non grata).

Just some thoughts from a warped mind.