I am so very sorry you have had this experience and uncertainty with this therapist. From what you have written before it doesn't seem like he is such a good therapist for you but I understand that it's important for you to have somebody, somewhere to rely on.

We have a pretty poor mental health system where I live, too. Different from yours in some ways but poor in it's own way.

From this and your other posts it seems to me like the system is failing you. But when the system has failed me I still have to deal with things, and the system, as it is in order to try to get what I need.

What is it that you want? To see this same therapist at his private practice at a discount or to get another therapist (if that's a possibility)?

Whatever they have done to make things confusing isn't really the important thing it seems to me. It's getting you to a good, reliable therapist or some other kind of help if at all possible.

Do you want to follow this therapist to his private practice? Or get another therapist through the public health system (if that's possible)?

Again, I'm so sorry you've been having this experience. It doesn't sound to me like your key worker has been much help either. How do you feel about him/her?

You said that you have lost your faith in therapy. I have too but for right now that is often all there is for those of us who have "issues". Is there another way to get the help and support you need do you think?