Sabby, Moggles and Sky, I am still working the legal angle here and when I am complete with that I will send my case to the Human Rights commission. It's interesting that you picked up on my needing a purpose. Unless I mentioned it before that is exactly where my head has been at. What am I here for if all that I do brings me sorrow. Yes the job I had for so many years brought me a lot more then sorrow and people still tell me that no one can do the work with the quality with which I did it. That makes me feel good. But in the end my agency was not kind as one would hope. I allowed myself to work 2x as hard as others and they grew to expect it and grew angry when I didn't perform to that level. However even with them now my feelings are about seeing people treated well as my replacement has been unable to manage to do that.

I know that I need to change my mind set of persecuted but the reality is that I have been and I have not admitted it a whole lot. It's a time of autumn for me, a time of change. But first the old leaves must die and I must get ready for a hibernation to be ready for my own spring time when I can see what blossoms.

My kiddo- oh I hope she knew/knows how much she is loved. Yes, unconditional love. I didn't get it till I was much older. it changed my life.

I don't know a lot right now but I am so very sad when I write about the kiddo. We used to lie awake at night and go watch her and wonder at the miracle that brought her to us. We marveled at her beauty and fierce instincts to live. We fell in love.