Wow is right Alex! I've talked to T about something similar. I often feel there are two of me. One that wants to be feminine and the other tough girl/guy that comes out as a protective shell.

My dad had a lot to do with this view of myself. He would say growing up to my brother 'your sister is more of a boy that you are'...so as the MMPI results stated I reject traditional female roles of wife and mom.

I still meet my son's needs but don't succumb to the pressure of being the perfect mother.

I'm glad you opened up to your T and on here too. Thanks for sharing