I never had a weight problem in my life. I was super skinny throughout high school and even when I gained weight (bc I actually started eating) I stayed around 130lbs. When I had my son I lost the weight fairly quickly, carrying a little extra, around 140lbs. Even with all the meds I tried I never gained weight. Then all of a sudden in 2015 my prolactin went sky high and I started gaining weight like crazy. I gained 70lbs in a year. I didn’t know it was the meds. My weight has gone up and down within 20 pounds this whole year. I can’t seem to crack the 20 pound mark.

I finally got off the weight gain drug and started to lose weight very slowly, but I’ve been completely unstable ever since stopping it. I was hospitalized in November and started on zyprexa and high dose depakote and gained 20 pounds in a month. I demanded to be off the zyprexa but I think the rexulti is doing the same thing to me. I just can’t stop eating. I just can’t. Even when I’m not hungry. I just eat and eat and eat. If I don’t eat, I obsess about eating until I do eat. I feel horrible about myself. If I get on the scale I think I will feel even worse.

I don’t know what to do. I need To be stable but I can’t afford to gain another 70lbs. I will get sick. I am already inching into prediabetes territory.

So I understand your predicament. For me, I have to be stable to keep my job and be a good mom to my son, and being non medicated does not work for me. So I’m in between a rock and a hard place.