The wheels fell off because of me—I always make them fall off. And before you say “stop blaming yourself,” no...I know myself and I know what I do. This is why I try again with someone who actually treats me pretty well.

When you’re 40 and haven’t had a relationship in 9 years, not much new territory to be had in the world, is there. So I try with what I have, and put effort into someone who is pretty kind to me because that person is there. No one else is. But thanks.