Feeling depressed and anxious. It has been getting worse since I put my cat to sleep. Tomorrow my husband starts work and I will be alone for a while. I am scared to be alone because of the depression. No alternative at this point. We need the extra income. I have the text 741 number to use. My husband will be unreachable. He is not allowed to have his cell phone on him. That is the part I am mad about. I feel I am heading down the hospital path. It is only december and I am already getting bad. I am sitting here just shaking. Every fall/winter is like this. What the hell do I do?