jDNA, I think your T would be shattered if you were to do that. You've had a bond for a long time, and I can remember some times his care for you really showed. I think you drew a picture once, from your childhood, and he sat and stared at it and -- this is my own vague memory, but -- I think he was hit hard by it, he got very quiet, and I think felt awful about what you'd been through. He does care, but I understand sometimes, it's hard to see it or remember it. I hope you feel it again soon. Please try to stay safe.