Well... I don't know as there is a lot I can offer here. I also have some serious rage issues myself. And when I'm in the midst of one, & sometimes at other times as well, I think perhaps I should be in the hospital although I know that the times I've been in, in the past, I did everything I could do to get out as quickly as possible. It's a quandary. Given what you've written, perhaps one option would be to simply follow the recommendations of others you rely on, such as your T. The good thing about the hospital is that, as you wrote, it is the safest place. Sometimes that's what's most important. I wish you well...